Thursday, December 23, 2010

Our year in pictures...


Here is our 2010 Christmas card designed by yours truly. =)
I also thought I would do a little recap of 2010.

We had a wonderful year.
We got to spend lots of time together as a family and do lots of fun things!

Some highlights of the year were:


Vacation to Orlando, Florida (Abbey and I tagged along on John's business trip)  


Finally getting our basement finished!


a weekend trip to Las Vegas with Grandma & Grandpa


Camping at Accord Lake


Spending time outside, especially in our backyard!


Going to the zoo


Lots of time at the park

4th of July in Salina


Stagg family reunion @ Flaming Gorge


Family trip to Southern California


Our big girl, Autumn turned 3!


Our peanut, Abbey turned 1!


Family pictures at Silver Lake @ Brighton Ski Resort


Happy Halloween from Snow White and Lil' Miss Ladybug!


Thanksgiving with Auntie Katie, Grandma, & Grandpa Sparrow


Christmas lights @ Temple Square


***


I am getting super-excited to wrap the girls' presents and play Santa!
Autumn is beyond excited!
She actually gets what Santa is all about and can't WAIT!
We are spending the night at my mom and dad's house,
then waking up and opening presents.
Then it's off to breakfast at my grandma's house,
then back to Tooele to have a visit from Grandma and Grandpa Stagg.
I hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas, surrounded by family and friends!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
With Love, the Staggs

Thursday, December 16, 2010

“Our prayer this Christmas season is that the light and testimony of the Savior's divine mission will come into our hearts and be reflected in our lives and in our homes.”
          --The First Presidency, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints

Ten days before Christmas (yesterday), we received some not-so-great news.
It didn't come as a huge surprise, as we knew it could happen, but it was nonetheless disappointing.
I am not one to spill my life story to a stranger at the grocery store,
or even to family and friends.
I try not to complain, but man, sometimes life can be so...
challenging.
For the past 15 months, I have struggled with post-partum depression.
I experienced it after I had Autumn then it got better, but came back in full force after Abbey was born.
It is amazing to me how treatable and untreatable this condition is!
One day I am great, ready to take on the world (my messy house and energetic daughters),
and the next, I can't even muster up the strength to life my head from my pillow.
Not to mention I suffer from chronic migraines and usually have them 3-5 times a week.
(I have tried just about everything I can think of to get rid of/treat them).
So, I am not in the best health, to say the least.

It is so hard.
Sometimes I feel so alone.
There are days when I wish I could disappear.
Some days I feel so hopeless that I want to go crazy!

I have not been myself these past 15 months.
I wish I could have my old self back.
It is not something that I can control.
It is not a mind over matter kind-of-thing.
When people make jokes about Prozac, it is very hurtful.
If it wasn't for Prozac, I wouldn't be able to get out of bed every day!

There is a lot of guilt associated with depression.
Feelings of not being good enough.
These feelings take over my thoughts and make me sick to my stomach.
It's so overwhelming.
I just want to feel good enough again.

It is so hard not to get offended by the smallest of things.
I hate it.
I wear my heart on my sleeve as it is, so now it's almost unbearable.

Since receiving this bad news from my husband, I am so grateful for my faith in Jesus Christ.
I don't know how I am handling it so well.
I know that Heavenly Father is giving me the super-strength that I require right now to get through this!
I am just trying to remain faithful.
Rely fully on The Lord.
Push all thoughts of fear and doubt out of my head.

I will be spending a lot of time on my knees, praying fervently for more strength.
I'm sorry if this comes off as dark or negative,
but sometimes it just feels good to get one's feelings out and into the open.

As Christmas approaches, and we don't have a cent to our name,
I am going to reflect on the birth of our Savior, Jesus Christ.
Because of him we can be forgiven.
All of our sins can be washed away.
What an incredible blessing.

I have my family and I have my faith--
I am the richest woman in the entire world.


Monday, December 6, 2010

Just sayin'

John always teases me for saying that, but it's the perfect title for this post. =0)

I have had my photography business for a little over two years. My very first paid shoot was in October of 2008. It has been quite the roller coaster ride with lots of ups and downs. One week I am totally in love with what I do and then the other I am totally discouraged and feel like giving up. I know it's all a silly confidence thing that I need to work out, but regardless, it still is a constant struggle.

Lately, I have noticed quite a few clients of mine choosing to go with other photographers. How do I know this? Mainly Facebook but also people's blogs. And I have to say, I completely and totally 100% get it--I don't expect all my clients to use me every-single-time. Why not try another photog's style/service? There are SO many to choose from, especially these days.

Why am I posting about this? Mainly because I don't want people, especially my friends and family, to feel like they have to be secretive about portraits they get taken by another photographer. Post away! I know how exciting it is to get your pictures back and you want to show them to the world! Is it going to hurt my feelings? Nah. I'm a big girl.

Please don't feel like you are going to offend me just because I'm a photographer. I just hope and pray I'm doing enough to keep my clients happy and coming back! =0) Maybe that's something I need to work on.

But, I'm just sayin'. =)

Sunday, November 28, 2010

{thanksgiving: many many blessings}

Our little Thanksgiving was wonderful.
We spent it with my parents and Auntie Katie.
It was a small group, but oh-so-sweet.
We had ridiculously too much food--it was all SO delicious!
(I ate not one, but two platefuls that day.)
We don't need to count calories on Thanksgiving, right?!







Things I am grateful for:
my husband
my angel daughters
my parents
my sister
my house
Christmastime
being a mother
photography
Coke
being a stay-at-home mom
Netflix
cuddle time with John
Jesus Christ
the temple
eternal families
The Office
music
(but not necessarily in that order). =)

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

{halloween memories.}

I love the fall!
It is SO my favorite season and I just can't get enough of Halloween.
I'm kind of sad that it's all over (but the thought of Thanksgiving in a few short weeks is getting me through)!
We had a very fun Halloween with our girls.

{favorite things from this halloween}
decorating our house as our family night activity
pumpkin carving 
 naming our pumpkins Timmy and Freda
eating cinnamon fritters
my pumpkin spice wax cubes (yum!)
attending the Seely's couple's costume party
taking Autumn trick-or-treating
going to Cornbelly's with the Seely's
eating a pumpkin square with cream cheese frosting
family time

{favorite halloween pictures}










Wednesday, October 13, 2010

to my {wonderful} parents

To say that my mom and dad are amazing,
would be the understatement of the century.
I know that we all (most of us) feel like we have been blessed with the best parents on God's green earth.
Well, that's just not possible, because I have the BEST parents on the planet.
Hands down.
My mom and dad live down the street and around the corner from us.
Almost walking distance (if John liked to take walks).
After we moved to Tooele, they moved out here as well, a few months later.
The way it all worked out so that they could move closer is such an amazing miracle!
I don't know what I would do without them.

They are always there when we need them.
They do so many things for us without hesitation.
They take care of me and my family with huge smiles on their faces.

They love and adore my children.
They SHOWER them with love, kisses, and junk food.
I've never seen more loving grandparents in my life.



My mom....
cooked, cleaned, and ran errands for me when I had my babies
lends us $100 when we are in the overdraft for the third time this month
invites us over for dinner even after she's worked a full 8-hour day
buys the girls' new outfits every time she goes into Salt Lake
brings us lunch every-single-day
plays with Autumn and snuggles Abbey her entire lunch break
understands why my house is a mess and never makes me feel bad about it



My dad....
has more love in his heart for his family than any other man I've ever known
drops everything to help John with projects around the house and yard
loves his grandchildren and wants to be close to every-single-one even if it's not possible
calls me when he is out of town just to see how we are doing
got me two antique cameras from my grandma's house because he knew I would love them
babysits my girls whenever I need him and loves every minute of it
watches hours and hours of Dora the Explorer, Beauty & The Beast, and Caillou without one complaint



Mom & Dad
I love you.
Thank you for everything.

Love, Me

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

My two cents on the flu vaccine...

**DISCLAIMER**
I am writing this blog post as an "FYI", no to be confused as a "You must NOT get the flu shot!!"-kind-of-article. If you choose not to receive the flu shot based on the contents of the article, I cannot be held responsible if you or anyone in your family catches the flu and/or suffers any adverse reactions because of the flu virus.

Ok, now that I've got that out of the way...

                                                        


Dangers of the Flu Shot

It's becoming increasingly difficult to separate facts from the hype created by the media and government. In order to make an informed decision of whether or not to get the flu shot, it is of utmost importance to do your homework. This involves doing thorough research of the safety issues surrounding the flu vaccination and then learning the preventative measures against getting the flu in the first place.

Like diehard fans camping out overnight to be the first in line for concert tickets to their favorite performer, people are waiting in long lines hoping to get the flu vaccine. Yes, it's that time of year -- flu season and the media and the government have stirred the public into a complete frenzied panic! Headlines flood newspapers reading, "Vaccine shortage leads public crisis" and radio broadcasts are bombarding the public with reports that the flu epidemic is coming and there aren't enough vaccines to fight it.



All I am suggesting is...

Before You Run Out to Get the Flu Shot ... Do Your Homework!

Flu vaccines are available as an injection of a dead flu virus, or as a nasal spray of the live virus. The Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) advises that the best way to protect oneself from seasonal influenza is with an annual flu shot. However, there are many concerns regarding the safety and effectiveness of annual flu vaccines...

1.  Potentially Dangerous Ingredients

One of the major risks of flu shots are the potentially dangerous ingredients they contain. Flu shots often have ingredients like formaldehyde, Triton X-100, and Thimerisol (a mercury derivative).

Formaldehyde has been classified as a human carcinogen by the Environmental Protection Agency. Research done by the International Agency for Research on Cancer has shown links between formaldehyde exposure and cancers of the brain, nasal tissues, and even leukemia.

Triton X-100 is a chemical found in flu shots that is considered to be a probable human carcinogen by the EPA. Triton X-100 is known to be harmful if swallowed, and may cause severe eye irritation.

Thimerisol is a mercury derivative, an element widely known to be dangerous to humans. Some cases of acute Thimerisol poisoning have been seen when as little as 3 mg/kg was ingested. These studies reported necrosis, central nervous system injury, coma, and death as results of acute Thimerisol poisoning. Many flu vaccines given in recent years contain this ingredient, according to manufacturers of flu shots like GlaxoSmithKline and Aventis-Pasteur.

2.  Viral Vaccine Issues

All vaccines meant to block viruses contain trace elements of leukemia virus, and multiple types of cancer producing viruses. According to Dr. Eva Snead, a physician and public health activist from New York, these cannot be completely removed, because they exist in the chicken eggs where vaccine is grown.

3.  Alzheimer's disease

According to renowned immunogeneticist Dr. Hugh Fudenberg, the Director of research at the NeuroImmuno Therapeutics Research Foundation (NITRF), a non-profit research organization in South Carolina, someone who has had five consecutive flu shots raises his/her risk of getting Alzheimer's disease by 10 times. The reason behind this, according to Dr. Fundenberg, is because of the gradual mercury buildup in the brain, which eventually leads to cognitive dysfunction.

4.  Guillian-Barre Syndrome

According to the CDC, Guillain-Barre Syndrome, a major neurological disorder, is believed to be triggered by an infection -- most commonly by a bacteria called Campylobacter jejuni, often found in animal feces. A 1976 study showed that about 1 in 1 million people getting the flu vaccine will develop Guillain-Barre syndrome because of trace elements of bacteria found in chicken eggs.

5.  Effectiveness

One major problem with flu vaccines is that medical experts can rarely tell which strain of the influenza virus will be predominant in the coming flu season. Flu vaccines are made from the previous year's strains, and can only protect against the types contained within vaccine. In 2003, U.S. government health officials and the companies that make flu vaccine omitted a strain of the virus known as Fujian A, which became the most common cause of the infection in the 2003-2004 flu season. In research done by the Department of Health and Human Services' National Vaccine Program Office in 2004, studies showed that vaccines were 60 percent effective, at best. Currently there is no system that tracks the effectiveness of flu vaccines on a yearly basis.

6.  Allergic Reaction


A severe allergic reaction called anaphylaxis is a potential danger of treatment with the flu shot. People who are allergic to eggs are at the highest risk of developing an allergic reaction following flu vaccination, as this medication can contain egg products. Allergic reaction symptoms can include throat or facial swelling, itchy skin or hives, dizziness, headache, breathing difficulties or heart rate changes. Without prompt medical intervention, allergic reaction symptoms can be fatal. People with a known allergy to eggs should consult a doctor before being immunized with the flu shot, Discovery Health advises.


The Target Markets for the Flu Vaccine: Elderly and Children

Generally, the flu vaccine is recommended for people ages 65 and older and to those with serious medical conditions that could quickly worsen as a result of serious complications from the flu. Reports from medical journals widely vary in the effectiveness for the elderly, ranging from 0 to 85 percent.

The CDC reports that 90 percent of deaths from influenza occur among the elderly. These kinds of statistics make it nearly impossible to credit the flu vaccine for prolonging lives in this age group, as 65 percent of all deaths (regardless of the cause) happen among the elderly.

Recommendations to give flu vaccinations to children were adopted on March 1, 2003. These recommendations include vaccinating children between 2 and 18 years who live in households containing children younger than 2 years of age. The most common type of flu vaccine given to children is called Fluzone, a trivalent vaccine grown in chicken eggs and harvested with formaldehyde, with each dose containing 25 ug of mercury. CDC recommendations include administering the flu vaccine to children beginning at six months of age and then on an annual basis, for the rest of their lives.


The Dangers You Need to Know About FluMist

First, it is important to familiarize yourself with the side effects of FluMist, which include cough, runny nose/nasal congestion, irritability, headaches, chills, muscle aches and fever. Ironically, all of these symptoms bear striking similarities to the symptoms of the flu.

In addition, research has shown an increased risk of Bell palsy following intranasal flu vaccination, according to the Global Advisory Committee on Vaccine Safety (GACVS). The makers of the nasal flu vaccine in the study decided not to market it the following season due to the risk. According to GACVS, the greater risk of Bell palsy following immunization with this vaccine may have been due to specific vaccine components, or simply to use of the intranasal administration route. It is therefore possible that such complications of vaccine administration may also apply to other nasal vaccines.

FLUMIST's vaccine live virus is shed after vaccination so the vaccinated are advised to avoid close contact with immune-compromised individuals for at least 21 days. Some hospital personnel are asking those recently vaccinated with FLUMIST to avoid visiting patients in hospitals to prevent the risk of transmitting the vaccine strain virus to sick patients.


So what can I do to protect my family and I from the seasonal flu?

If you choose not to receive the flu shot, there are some simple and possibly quite effective things you can do for yourself to prevent the flu:

1) avoid white sugar
2) exercise regularly
3) get adequate sleep
4) eat a healthy diet, omitting trans-fats
5) drink plenty of purified water daily
6) wash your hands.

A common way people contract viral illnesses is by rubbing their nose or their eyes after their hands have been contaminated with a virus. The CDC states, “the most important thing you can do to keep from getting sick is to wash your hands.”

**We are so used to taking medications—for prevention and treatment—that it is difficult to comprehend that these modest recommendations are really the most powerful ways to minimize the likelihood of getting the flu.**

The flu vaccine can actually weaken the immune system and make you more predisposed to the illness.

The flu vaccine, whether in the shot or nasal form, is worthless at best and should be avoided. Not only are they loaded with toxic chemicals including mercury and aluminum, but many people come down with the flu shortly after receiving the shot. This is because it actually weakens the immune system, making the person more predisposed to the illness.



So there you have my two cents on why not to get the flu shot for you or anyone in your family!

Friday, September 17, 2010

stuff.

My house is covered in stuff.
Stuff.
Such a weird word!
Regardless of it's weirdness, I have too much of it.
Specifically, kid stuff.
Toys, shoes, clothes, books, crayons, and DVDs.
And every birthday, Christmas morning, and visit to Grammy's house,
 brings more of it into my small home.

I am overwhelmed with stuff.
And now that I have two children, it's doubled!
I just can't keep up with it all.

And don't even get me started on laundry...
I shutter to think of how it will be when we expand our family even more...
*eye twitching*

Anywho, I need some help in the form of advice.
What do all of you do about all the stuff?
I am not very good at keeping things clean or oragnized.
I am still learning how to balance it all.
(Will I ever get there?)

How do you keep your house from getting completely and utterly taken over?
I would LOVE any oragnizing, cleaning, de-cluttering tips because my house is
COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY TAKEN OVER!

HELP!

Monday, September 13, 2010

happy {3rd} birthday, my sweet Autumn



On August 21st, my sweetie pie, Autumn Ellen, turned 3 YEARS OLD!
Where the last three has have gone is beyond my comprehension.

It went by so stinkin' fast!

Autumn is such a happy spirit in our home and lives.
She is constantly making us laugh with her funny personality and cute, little voice.
She is a great big sister and is so good about sharing with Abbey.
I just can't imagine what my life was before Autumn!



Autumn's favorite things:
  • playing Barbie's (she got a new Barbie house for her birthday)
  • putting her Barbie Dolls and baby dolls to "sleep" with a pillow and a grippie (blanket)
  • playing hide n' seek with anyone who will take the time to play it with her
  • coloring very beautiful and colorful pictures for Mommy (which I must hang on my bulletin board)
  • watching any and all Disney movies, especially princess ones
  • cooking dinner with Mommy
  • going to church, especially nursery
  • calling Daddy on the phone while he's at work
and best of all...

laying a grippie on the grass in the front yard and looking at the stars with Mommy and Daddy



I don't know what John and I did to deserve such a sweet and special little spirit, but we are so incredibly blessed to have Autumn as our daughter and in our eternal family.



I love you, sweet girl!

XOXO, Mommy

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

My guardian angel wears lipstick

Grandma meeting Abbey.

On August 12, 2010 my grandmother, Bonnie Laird, returned to her loving Heavenly Father, peacefully, surrounded by loved ones. Her passing was quite unexpected, so it is with great sorrow that we say our good-byes to this wonderful and caring woman we lovingly refer to as "Grandma Bonnie".

Grandma's quick wit and spunk made her an absolute joy to be around. Her clever remarks and keen sense of humor always had everyone laughing!

Grandma was very meticulous about sending out birthday cards to every member of her extended family. We knew that a couple days before our birthday, we could expect a beautiful Hallmark card in the mail. Grandma had a birthday card all made out with $5 in it for Autumn. My parents handed me the card and it hit me--this would be the last birthday card that my little family would see from Grandma Bonnie. I will treasure this piece of paper always.
"Autumn Ellen" so beautifully written on the front in Grandma's beautiful script.

Grandma was an avid doll collector and had a huge collection of Barbie dolls and Madame Alexander dolls perfectly displayed in her house. Every doll was special to her and she took great care in collecting and displaying her dolls. She passed on the doll collecting fever to many of her granddaughters. I remember as a little girl, staring through the glass of her curio cabinets at the gorgeous dresses and accessories of every Barbie. I was so envious that Grandma got to play with such beautiful Barbies!


Celebrating Grandma's 80th birthday

A wonderful memory that I will always cherish is going on vacation with Grandma to Reno and Lake Tahoe, Nevada when I was 16. We invited her along on our family vacation and with much pressure from Dad, she decided to come. She willingly rode in the back of Dad's truck with me and we had a great time chatting and seeing the sights. We visited the pristine lake, The Ponderosa, and also her brother Vance that lives in Nevada. We had such a great time with Grandma and we were so glad she came with us.

This scripture in Alma always brings me comfort:
Alma 40:12--And then shall it come to pass, that the spirits of those who are righteous are received into a state of happiness, which is called paradise, a state of rest, a state of peace, where they shall rest from all their troubles and from all care, and sorrow.

I have a testimony of the atonement of Jesus Christ. I know that through his sacrifice, all men may be forgiven of his sins and able to return to the presence of our Heavenly Father. I know that Grandma is at peace now and surrounded by loved ones that have passed. It brings me comfort to know that she is watching over me and my family.

I love you, Grandma Bonnie and I will miss coming to your little house in Eureka. I will miss your yummy lunches and candied yams. I will miss your birthday cards and visiting you on Mother's Day. I will miss watching you hold and play with my babies. You will forever be in my heart.

I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

Grandma meeting Autumn. Autumn lovingly referred to her as "G.G. Bonnie"

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Grandma holding Autumn on her blessing day.